One week prior to my Diet Smart Plan

Submitted by Janetcooper07 on Wed, 09/27/2006 - 11:01pm.

It is ironic that I am sitting here at my desk with a glass of red wine and two slices of pizza beginning my diet blog.  And, with that said, let me say that I am not much of a writer, but I am going to tell you how I feel, how I fare, and that I hope that you are going to be entertained and learn something along the way.

 Let's go ahead and get introduced since we are going to be spending some time together.  My name is Janet. I am happily married to a wonderful man, Danny, and we have two great kids, Emily, who is 8, and Josh, who just started kindergarten.  Danny and I are both in our mid thirties (I am not going to tell you my exact age, come on!) and we have been married for almost 10 years.  We met shortly after college through his sister Rachel who was one of my sorority sisters at UT.  We also have a beagle and a cat.

When we married, I was an assistant brand marketing manager for a consumer products company and he was an engineer designing fire safety equipment.  When Emily was born, I decided to stay home for a year and resume my career after she was old enough to go to day care.  Then I got pregnant with Josh and then I was going to wait until he was old enough before going back to work.  That was six years ago that I was pregnant.  I don't know what happened to the time, but between the diapers, bottles, naps, trips to the grocery store, laundry, play dates, and the tempertantrums, the next thing I know, Josh was getting on a bus heading to his class. 

I love my kids, but now that they are off to school, I think it is time to focus on me and the things that I have been putting off for years.  I want to RECONNECT, re-engage with the outside world.  For the past 8 years, I seen to have had Barney the dinosaur constantly playing in the background of my house. And now, I want to focus my attention and my new found free time to focus on me. 

Since I have been home, there is another major change.  I am now 191 lbs. and barely fitting in a size 14.  My wedding dress from long ago was a size 6 ( I am now finishing the last of the pizza and moving on to my second glass of wine).  I don't consider myself a pig, I don't think I binge, but somehow I was able to pack on over 50 lbs. since my wedding day.  At first I thought it was my genetically given slow metabolism since my little sister Nicky also had put on weight.  I guess that I justified the weight gain since she and my mom were both overweight as well.

Danny seemed Ok with the extra weight although he gained only maybe 10 lbs. over the years and remained active.  I know it has impacted our love life even though Danny has been too nice to mention it directly.  Even though he doesn't say it, I think he feels it gets in the way.  I know I feel it, I don't feel beautiful or sexy, I feel heavy.  I don't even like to undress in front of him.  Face it, my "fatness" is getting in the way. 

The first reconnection I hope to make is my libido, I want to look and feel like one of those chicks from Desperate Housewives.  As I re-emerge from my isolation and get back to the real world, the first thing I am going to work on is how I feel about me.

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