Impatient

Submitted by Hillary on Mon, 11/27/2006 - 2:38am.

I’m pleased to say that I got through all of the eating tied to Thanksgiving without overdoing it, which is a small miracle since I had to go to four (yes, four) separate Thanksgiving meals.  I did have stuffing and mashed potatoes and pie, but I kept my portions small and never felt like I had eaten too much.  I also managed to keep my blood sugar at good levels. 

I got all sorts of positive feedback from people who came home for the holidays and were surprised by how much weight I have lost.  One of the guys who works at my favorite Indian restaurant even said something about how much weight I’ve lost.  But… 

…I’m feeling so impatient.  Yes, I look much better than I did.  Yes, I’ve made a LOT of progress on losing weight and getting fitter.  I’ve come to like exercising (most of the time) and I feel good.  I still have so far to go, though.  There’s less of me, but my thighs are still fat.  My stomach is not flat.  My ass jiggles.  I have extra padding on my hips.  And my arms lack definition.  I just want to get to my goal weight already!  It’s not that I’m sick of dieting.  I’m perfectly prepared to eat healthy and work out for the rest of my life.  It’s not like I have a choice – I will have to eat healthy and work out for the rest of my life.  It’s that I’m sick of working so hard and having the payoff take so long.  I’m slowly reaping the rewards, and I know there is an even bigger payoff coming, but I’m getting tired of waiting.  Sometimes I wish I could fast forward to the part where I’m done losing weight and can focus on maintaining instead.