Torpor and Lassitude

Submitted by L_ANSARI on Wed, 09/20/2006 - 3:42pm.

Day 51
September 20, 2006

I learned these two words together what seems like eons ago when I was studying for the GRE. I was hoping to get a score high enough to meet the entrance criteria for some of the “big ten” schools in clinical psychology. I rocked the verbal section but performed dismally at best in math. Stupid standardized tests (much grumbling). But that is neither here nor there.

I used these uniquely descriptive words to illustrate a uniquely unnerving experience I am having on this diet. Forget what I said about running more efficiently and having more energy. As of late, I have hardly any energy at all. Yesterday, after picking up my son from school, I fell asleep on my computer working on the very last piece of my dissertation (which I can happily say I finally finished!). It was a little sad. I had worked out, had coffee, had diet coke, and eaten my vegetables but no dice. As soon as Noah went down for his nap, Mommy went down too. Face down. I wonder if I am fighting some cold or virus that is about to launch an assault on my immune system any minute now. My son is sick, so it makes sense. The point is that I have noticed this lack of energy as more than sluggishness, beyond lethargy-it is very much like being in a stupor for days and days and never being able to quite shake it off.

I described this feeling (as well as the fact that my fingernails are breaking off) to my Jenny Craig hero best friend who is now suffering through the maintenance part of the program. After the initial horror over my fingernails wore off, she agreed with the feeling of torpor. Although she admits it is a feeling she has often regardless of whether or not she is on a diet plan. She also recommended I take my liquid vitamin more regularly. Fingernails! Hello!

I myself am concerned about the artificial preservatives and sweeteners in all the Jenny Craig meals and snacks in addition to the food that is allowed outside the prepared meals. I sat down and closely examined all the boxed foods, diet yogurt, diet coke, and coffee that I ingest. Most of the JC meals have “partially hydrogenated” something for every entrée. The program suggests drinking diet drinks and eating only fat free yogurt in between meals (something that is reiterated by counselors). This makes diet sense but it is disturbing to see how many chemicals I am consuming at any given meal on any given day. That’s a lot of caffeine and artificial sweetener going around. I am very curious about how the other diets compare in this arena. Would I feel better, more alert, more clear headed on a diet devoid of these chemicals? I wonder.